Out Of Place

Yesterday’s events really opened my eyes, as to where “my place” is now. That, and a talk I had with my father a long time ago (about a girl I couldn’t get over) were my inspiration for this song. You wanted me there, and if you still do in general we can try to work something out, but otherwise- this song pretty much says it all.

Out Of Place

Here I am- Stuck in this place,
Its so hard to be around you and not feel this way.
There’s so many things that I’ve wanted to say,
But didnt because I dont want to hurt you this way.

I know its been so long-
But we have a history that time cant displace.
What we had together was so special
Its too bad that we had to end that way
Being Just friends just isn’t in the cards
Thats what makes this so hard..

I want you to know that I love you still
But the pain I feel is just too real
I cant keep pretending just to put a smile on your face
I cant keep living this way- So out of place

There’s something about you
that wont let me go
And it brings me back
To this merry-go-round we know
I don’t like my part in your fantasy land
I just hope you can understand..

That I love you still
But the pain I feel is oh-so-real
I dont want to pretend just to put a smile on your face
I don’t want to keep playing this game-
Feeling so out of place.

Baby, you were my first love
And maybe thats why everything
Seemed greater than it really was.
I like stories with happy endings
I wish our story could have had one too
I know Im no longer you knight in shining armor,
But there’s something I’ve always wanted to tell you

I know this wont be easy
and as I promised you wont have to make a choice
Im really going to stick to my guns this time
Because for me- There really is no other choice.

I still love you Baby
And because of that
the pain I feel is just way too real
Im sorry I wont pretend just
to see that smile on your shining face
I cant live in this game anymore-
Feeling so out of place.

So out of place…