What is the spice of life?

I personally think its Improvisation.
Not knowing whats going to come next.
And isnt that where the greatest stories come from?
I personally think it makes life exciting-
As long as you cant take the bad times with the good.
No improvised solo is ever perfect.. but it is never flawed.
Its dancing in the fire… and getting burned
Its fighting to get what you want by any means necessary.

After all-
“Life is not tried, it is merely survived If you’re standing outside the fire.”
-Garth Brooks

For me, some of the happiest times Ive had is when Ive sat in an Improvised jam session after school (ala ‘Fish and the Sardine Trio’) and who could forget “The Banditos” one time recording session… sadly, some of the best stuff that came out of the recording session never actually got recorded. Its a sad shame, but maybe those times like others are best left in the memories of those that were there.

Even the best laid plans can go astray- what we do after that is what makes life interesting.

Cleaning out my closet

Its funny what you’ll find when you clean out your closet. Old pictures and presents that once thought were lost.

I know how Odie feels

Please take this as a joke- this is how my life has gone this last week, especially the last three boxes. It’s ironically funny so have a good laugh. I know I did. After all- If you cant laugh at yourself, you’re not really livin. Enjoy!

Friends

*gasp*… Ouchie!

So Ive spent the majority of the past 17 hours on my feet and right now- I cant get up, literally Im stuck.
Every muscle in my foot up through my knees and into my quads have started to tighten to the point it hurts (god I feel old) but I made it through the day/night and once I can get up Im off for some well deserved rest.

After I was released from my shift at the hotel I drove over to the theater only to realize I had about 90 minutes to spare so I walked through Karcher Mall after pounding a warm (and my second) Monster energy drink. While in SamGoodies or whatever the CD shop is called I found a CD by possibly the greatest Blues Guitarist (and maybe the most unheard of one), Joe Bonamassa. His blues lines are simply sick! My roommate got me hooked on his music and now Ive started my own collection of Joe’s music. Its not a bad way to spend a 45 minute break along with some AC and Blimpies. That was the best (and really only) time Ive had sitting down tonight.

I feel bad that my jobs have started to take away from my friends.. A lot of my “bros” are coming back to C-Town for a few days every now and then and Ive missed chillin with them because of the hours Ive been working the past few nights. I feel bad, but I’ll make up for it later.

Not Pity, Just a Prayer Please.

So I think Im really going to enjoy working at Edwards. I feel Ive made a great impression on fellow co-workers and management with my whatever-you-need-I’ll-do attitude and work ethic.
Now here’s where the title of the post comes in.
For the next week Im still working at the Hotel in Boise and tomorrow Im scheduled to work both of my jobs. Basically Im running non-stop from 6:30 am tomorrow till whenever I go to bed- which will probably be sometime after 1am that night. Yes!
Again I dont ask for pity, because Im excited to take on this challenge, but if anyone reads this through tomorrow- just say a small prayer for me and I thank you now in advance.

Expect and interesting post tomorrow night.

Biting my tounge no more

I was honest tonight… and I will continue to be now.

Ive changed my life so much and so fast in the past few weeks its not even funny. I’m impassioned because my life is a wreck and no- I didn’t use the word impassioned wrong. This past week it’s felt like EVERYTHING has changed, and not all for the best- so now I’m impassioned to bring myself back.
I wont be the Sam I was before- because I cant be. And I definitely wont be the same Sam I was this past week. I’m just going to be me, not malicious, not vengeful.. just me. I wont be rude… I just wont say anything at all.
I’m in this wreck because of decisions Ive made and because I let someone else have all the power. Now… I’m taking everything back. I’m separating the lives I live… Who I am here and now is not who I will be at work, whichever job that may be. I’m capable of so much more and stronger than I have in the past while. I cant take back the moves Ive made or things Ive done that have gotten me to this point- so now I’m going to build upon what Ive got and go from there.
This separation, on the inside, isn’t going to feel very pleasant, but it’s going to feel a whole lot better than it would have if I hadn’t decided to take back control tonight.
Ive accepted the fact that some people wont like what I say- like that fact that I feel all kisses are special. I’m not sorry I feel that way. I’m going to stand by that no matter what.
Ive changed my life so much already to make other people happy- I’m not going to lose my convictions to do the same. If people aren’t willing to change even a little bit for me after Ive changed so much for them, then I’m simply going to stop changing.
I know what I’m saying and I know what I’ll have to do if I really mean it, but I’m okay with that for now.
Tonight, this is going to be hard, and I may regret it tomorrow, and maybe even the next day- but eventually I will heal from what Ive done this week and I will be stronger.. better.. and hopefully happier.

-God, Grant me the Courage to change the things I can, Serenity to accept the things I cant, and the Wisdom to know the difference. –

Butterfly Kisses

And if that song is talking about something else- I really didnt catch it.

I cant believe the look on Danny and Michelle’s face when they walked (sprinted) out the chapel doors. She was smiling ear to ear and I dont think Danny was smiling any less.
Being a co-best man and groomsman I’ve learned a lot about the inner workings of a wedding. Some things I knew, Some things I learned, and some things I’ll never forget.
Last night was stressful, today was the fruit of that stress. I cant wait to see the wedding party pictures. Im pretty sure that the lady taking our pics got some amazing shots. I dont know about the bride and bridesmaid photo shoot, but all of us in the grooms party had a relaxed and fun photo shoot and I know that will come through on the film.
I know I could give details of the wedding and how that should be the most memorable thing, but its going to be the other things that I remember most. Chillin with Chris, Danny, Nick… and Jonathon in the groomsman area waiting for time to tick down will probably be what I remember the most. It was nothing more than small talk, nothing monumental, but bonds formed and strengthened just sitting back there. Time honored friendships (most) just talking about the old times and times to come.
The reception was, well- I think my second memorable thing from this wedding. Just chillin at the table talking with Chris, Beth, and Chas… all three are pretty awesome people that are fun to hang out with. I felt like for a little while I was able to open up and be me with out fear of making myself look bad- the people dancing to MJ’s Thriller were doing that enough for everyone.
Today was full of memories that will last a life time. From the smiles to the first dances… Im happy for the newly weds and I wish them the best of luck on their new life together.