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There’s really nothing left to say

I… just… don’t understand where suicide is ever an acceptable option.
I’ve been really depressed and down before, but I’ve never come close to having suicidal thoughts. And I never will.

All the small things

Today has been one of those days… strangely odd. Not Bad, not AMAZING, just different.

Im pretty sure that at best I passed my Econ test with a C, oh well. Thats what I get for ‘Studying’.
I was listening to the Marines Running Cadence Band geeky, I know
and this guy randomly stopped me in the quad and asked if he could t talk to me for a few minutes.
Being the kind of guy that can’t say no and having nothing better to do I talked to him.

And as my first guess was right- he wanted to talk about Religion.

It was an interesting conversation,
he asked me if I was religious, what I believed, and then some odd questions.
I made a promise to myself awhile ago that when people ask me what my view on Religion was I would be honest.
We talked and I think he was surprised at exactly what my views are and how much I actually knew.

Does anyone remember Fruit Stripes Gum? So old school, I love it. And Ginger Snaps. Yum.

Like I said- It’s been a different kind of day.

All the Right Reasons

So Far Away, Savin’ Me in a Photograph of a Rockstar thinking If Everyone Cared…

A question

If I still have doubts and I can’t whole heartedly say I want to do it- Should I still go through with it?

Yes or No?

Proposition 3-17

All I have to say is that it’s about damn time to make St Patrick’s Day an official holiday.

Proposition 3-17

Time for the show

I saw this coming from day one, and now that’s starting to happen- all I can do is smile.

This one should be good.

Joining The 11th Cavalry

Today I’ve exchanged several phone calls and e-mails with the Brass Caption Head from the Troopers and we talked through several things about myself joining the troopers.

I let him know that I wont be able to make this weekends camp, however I told him I would send an audition tape with Jake and the rest of the crew to the camp and definitely make it to the next camp in April. He told me he wanted me to put my best attempt into the audition and that it did not have to be polished and perfect. Just enough to see that I have skills for him to mold and work with.

We both agreed that I wasn’t an official (contracted) member of the Troopers until I get through the camp in April. He did however say that I will be penciled into the hornline spot.

I talked to my boss at work and let her know what’s happened and after a 20 minute conversation, She said she supported my decision and that I would have a job when I got back in august. That made me feel good.

The excitement and the “Impulsive YES syndrome” has worn off and I’ve taken most of last night and today to think about it, and emotionally I’ve waffled a few times, but after talking with Scott (the caption head) I feel really good about this decision. When he said, “We will work with you- You do not have to be perfect”, it clinched that I can and will get though this.

I’ve got a long road ahead, and quite the challenge to shake the rust off and get in better shape. But I am up to it.