often times as just before I close my eyes to go to sleep.
I’ve written many a song and a poem in this state of inspirational bliss.
Where the ideas flow smoothly and constantly.
However, I don’t think I’ve ever written a full movie/story plot outline.
Like I did tonight.
I am impressed.
If you’ve ever seen boondock saints… you know what Im talking about.
I made a split second decision today to not be indifferent. I am a good man.
Its technically 3:40am and I’ve come to a realization. The song that I posted last night –Nothing At All– Though it speaks the truth- It just doesn’t feel good to me. I’ll leave it up, but I just wanted to make note that Im not exactly sure how I feel about that song anymore.
Actually– I don’t know how I feel about a lot of peoples (girls) words and actions. What the fuck do you want from me? I may be a different style of guy- but seriously, at the end of the day im still a guy. Help is always appreciated.
I guess what helped me realize everything and set my life back on course was finding this old Mix CD I made maybe eight or nine years ago and on it (Track #7) I found that song. THAT SONG. The one that says EXACTLY how I feel about a certain person.
It’s put me at ease after a long weekend (my weekend anyway) of trying to put into words exactly what I feel. This may have just been one of those times where words just cant do it justice. However this song almost hits it on the head.
What IS this song exactly?
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Her halo’s a little tarnished
And wings long since missing
But she’s changing this life I’ve been living
And bringing me back to life again.
So many nights I’ve sat alone
Thinking about how to tell her what she means to me
Praying that the words would come to me one day
But the words never quite come out the right way
Because–
Nothing can tell you how amazing your smile is
Nothing can tell you that beautiful your eyes are
Nothing can tell you how graceful you do the things you do
Nothing can tell you How much I think of you
.
To show you all the things you’ve changed in me
Simply can’t be done, you know-
It’s really hard describing how you feel about someone
When you’re trying to say everything and
Hiding the fact you’re in love with them
I’ve tried and tried, But..
Nothing can tell you how amazing your smile is
Nothing can tell you that beautiful your eyes are
Nothing can tell you how graceful you do the things you do
Nothing can tell you How much I think of you.
Never forget who you are
And even though I may not be the one
And you find love in another someone
There’s these things I want you to know—
Nothing can tell you how amazing your smile is
Nothing can tell you that beautiful your eyes are
Nothing can tell you how graceful you do the things you do
Nothing can tell you How much I think of you.
Nothing-
Nothing at all.
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There are parts of writing this one I really loved… and others that I feel need to be re-done. But I wanted to share what I have so far. If anyone feels that they’ve read something like this before– It’s because I took parts of older stuff I wrote to create this one.
Enjoy.
I can’t believe how much Im actually finding myself thinking about her. Caring about her.
I just wish I knew if she felt the same way…
*sigh*
I have to admit, it being 2:45 am and all- I may actually miss living here in the dorms- A little bit.
Or not.
I’ve got so many things going through my mind.
So many things I cant possibly write about at once.
I don’t know how to feel about all these changes.
Part of me wants to apologize.
Another part of me really wants to tell her the truth.
….
Just so many things…
I think I need some JBX or BK…
I don’t know how long I’ll be without internet for after right now– hopefully it wont be to long.
I miss you.
I hate you.
Because I feel you.
-Joe Bonnamassa, Miss you,Hate You
Anyways…
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