Or at least something I really want to put as my network banner on myspace:
If there was ever a day to give me bad news: This would be it because Im going out with my buds tonight!
except–
I don’t want to hear anymore bad news, especially from her.
I saw it coming… maybe that’s why it doesn’t hurt.
Maybe it’s the Rum… I don’t know. (And I really haven’t had that much)
Maybe I’m being impulsive… no.. yup.
Im hurt.
There are times I don’t know when Im justified in being hurt, what should offend me- and what shouldn’t. Maybe that’s the source of my laid back “chilled” demeanor. But this time, this time I think I’m justified in being hurt.
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I wont lie, The weather here is amazing! We had a huge thunderstorm last night that shook the buildings and lit up the court yard like the sun at high noon. It was crazy!
As excited as I am to be here, Im also missing Kristin a lot. Missing someone is natural… but I guess the feeling that she should be missing me too when it appears that she isn’t, is really effecting me. We’ll call it the ‘Out of Sight- Out of Mind’ complex. I absolutely hate it… For as much as she said she was going to miss me and not know what to do without me, she’s found plenty of things and people to keep her busy and mind off of me.
On one hand, I’m glad she’s not feeling like me, but at the same time- I wish she were… call me selfish or needy for once, but that’s what I need… I think. I could spill my guts, and all my wants and needs, but I wont… I guess the starts that month long silence period. De-toks never felt so bad.
I don’t know what’s going to happen, but I’m not going to hold onto the memories in the past… I’m going through some sort of hell– and I guess the only thing I can do is keep on trucking.
That’s pretty much where my love-life is right now.
The feelings are starting to be mutual, but it’s going to take more time…. and you know what? I’m okay with that.
sigh, I guess life is okay right now.
