Continuance

I’ve never felt so happy for someone, yet so sick to my stomach after getting a singular piece of news.

“I’ve tried so hard-

-And got so far…

It sucks dreaming about someone you can’t have.

…But In the end it doesn’t even matter.”

Omens

Either that or self fulfilling prophecies in the form of a song… Hm.

Shifting Gears

I saw it coming… maybe that’s why it doesn’t hurt.
Maybe it’s the Rum… I don’t know. (And I really haven’t had that much)
Maybe I’m being impulsive… no.. yup.
Im hurt.

There are times I don’t know when Im justified in being hurt, what should offend me- and what shouldn’t. Maybe that’s the source of my laid back “chilled” demeanor. But this time, this time I think I’m justified in being hurt.

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From The Vault

Sometimes I surprise myself with the things I’ve written and how even though I wrote something so long ago it still fits my current situation right now. Thats when you know it’s good.

Because sometimes– All Anyone needs is One Chance.

Better late than never

Its technically 3:40am and I’ve come to a realization. The song that I posted last night –Nothing At All– Though it speaks the truth- It just doesn’t feel good to me. I’ll leave it up, but I just wanted to make note that Im not exactly sure how I feel about that song anymore.

Actually– I don’t know how I feel about a lot of peoples (girls) words and actions. What the fuck do you want from me? I may be a different style of guy- but seriously, at the end of the day im still a guy. Help is always appreciated.

I guess what helped me realize everything and set my life back on course was finding this old Mix CD I made maybe eight or nine years ago and on it (Track #7) I found that song. THAT SONG. The one that says EXACTLY how I feel about a certain person.
It’s put me at ease after a long weekend (my weekend anyway) of trying to put into words exactly what I feel. This may have just been one of those times where words just cant do it justice. However this song almost hits it on the head.

What IS this song exactly?

Nothing At All

Her halo’s a little tarnished
And wings long since missing
But she’s changing this life I’ve been living
And bringing me back to life again.

So many nights I’ve sat alone
Thinking about how to tell her what she means to me
Praying that the words would come to me one day
But the words never quite come out the right way

Because–

Nothing can tell you how amazing your smile is

Nothing can tell you that beautiful your eyes are

Nothing can tell you how graceful you do the things you do

Nothing can tell you How much I think of you
.
To show you all the things you’ve changed in me
Simply can’t be done, you know-
It’s really hard describing how you feel about someone
When you’re trying to say everything and
Hiding the fact you’re in love with them

I’ve tried and tried, But..

Nothing can tell you how amazing your smile is

Nothing can tell you that beautiful your eyes are

Nothing can tell you how graceful you do the things you do

Nothing can tell you How much I think of you.

Never forget who you are
And even though I may not be the one
And you find love in another someone
There’s these things I want you to know—

Nothing can tell you how amazing your smile is

Nothing can tell you that beautiful your eyes are

Nothing can tell you how graceful you do the things you do

Nothing can tell you How much I think of you.

Nothing-
Nothing at all.
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There are parts of writing this one I really loved… and others that I feel need to be re-done. But I wanted to share what I have so far. If anyone feels that they’ve read something like this before– It’s because I took parts of older stuff I wrote to create this one.

Enjoy.