Blindsided and still going

So I have to admit that tonight has been a roller coaster, probably thanks to some really shitty champaign.

I have to admit that finding out that this girl I’ve been flirting with had a Boyfriend kinda took the wind out of my sails, especially since it looked like she wasn’t going to be able to go to the Dane Cook concert… however, It sounds like she’s still going to go because she wants to no matter what her boyfriend says.

Im kind of nervous about all this because I don’t want to be a or the reason they break up, which is kinda what it sounds like…. even if I do feel that her and I have a connection and would be great together. But that’s beside the point.

I wasn’t sure how things were going to go after I told her she should still go- but the fact that she still wants to go makes me feel amazing. Im glad that this little fiasco doesnt appear to be derailing our friendship… She’s pretty Awesome.

data:Hard_Corps//8.12.4.

I cant tell you the last time I was really excited about doing something that was going to whip my ass.
As Eminem says-
‘Look, if you had one shot, and one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted in one moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?’

For two summers I’ve let it slip by, and I thought for good too… but I guess I’ve got one more and I really cant see myself doing anything else this summer other than doin that corp thing. Its going to make me stronger as a player and healthier than I have been in years.

After what Ive given up these last few summers (all basically for nothing) Im taking my last summer of eligibility and doing what I want for once, no one will take this away from me.

I will spend the rest of my life, day by day, doing one thing- proving that everyone who’s said- that I cant do something; that I wont do something; that I wasn’t good enough; that passed over me; that try to hold me down; that chose someone else- that they were wrong and made the wrong choice. Not by being malicious- but by being who I am and being successful. Its all about the attitude.

8.12.4. Everyone wants it, but only few can ever have it.

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The Dirt

…Dirt in my pocket
Dirt on my shoes…
…Dirt on my conscience
Dirt on over you…

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Ive got the dirt, but the question is- what do I do with it?

Another Day

Another day to
-Earn another dollar
Another day to
-Rise up
Another day to
-Exude greatness
Another day to
-Mend a heart
Another day to
-Prove people wrong
Another day to
-Get away

All I need is Another day like today.

A lesson I should’ve learned a long time ago

Its practically impossible to study when the mind is preoccupied with the heart.

Get up! Get up! Get up!

Wow

Days like today-
And…
Nights like tonight-
Make me feel so…
Alone.