Insomniatic Clarity

You’ll never know exactly how I feel
Because when kept inside you can’t say it’s real
Keeping it from you so you’ll never know
Holding my heart back from where it wants to go

You changed my life and didn’t even know it
A change in me that I wont soon forget
Maybe I’ll be able to tell you one day
But that’s a bit of gratitude I’ve yet to repay

There I was free falling through the air
with a parachute I couldn’t repair
You found me as I fell from the sky
You gave me wings and taught me to fly

You’ll never know what one smile can do
Like pick someone up when they’re feeling blue
For me- that’s exactly what you do
Just by you being you.

Going Back

There once was a time
Where all I did was speak in rhymes
Thats what made me a witty phantom
playing with an abstract mind

That’s all I ever did
but since then I’ve gone blind
Blind to the rhythms and the rhymes
as I grew older with the evolution of time

It helped heal the pain
and provided a mask
so no matter how much attention was gained
There was always a way to cover my tracks

As time ticked away
the need for the mask disappeared
From back then to today
Its good to see this is still a game I can play

….

yup, I’ve still got it.

Brainsplat…

I used to stand on this line- the only one where all the others were two. That’s where you can find me- Standing where the Orange meets the Blue.

Pennings from the Front Desk

“When all your short comings and imperfections come crashing down-
When it seems like the world is too big and you’re just an insignificant amount.
That’s my biggest fear– Being exposed as something Im not.
Thinking I really am somebody only to be left with my doubts.”

“When the walls come crumbling down
And there is nowhere left to hide
Will you be standing tall
With Pride still burning in your eyes?”

Nothing At All

Her halo’s a little tarnished
And wings long since missing
But she’s changing this life I’ve been living
And bringing me back to life again.

So many nights I’ve sat alone
Thinking about how to tell her what she means to me
Praying that the words would come to me one day
But the words never quite come out the right way

Because–

Nothing can tell you how amazing your smile is

Nothing can tell you that beautiful your eyes are

Nothing can tell you how graceful you do the things you do

Nothing can tell you How much I think of you
.
To show you all the things you’ve changed in me
Simply can’t be done, you know-
It’s really hard describing how you feel about someone
When you’re trying to say everything and
Hiding the fact you’re in love with them

I’ve tried and tried, But..

Nothing can tell you how amazing your smile is

Nothing can tell you that beautiful your eyes are

Nothing can tell you how graceful you do the things you do

Nothing can tell you How much I think of you.

Never forget who you are
And even though I may not be the one
And you find love in another someone
There’s these things I want you to know—

Nothing can tell you how amazing your smile is

Nothing can tell you that beautiful your eyes are

Nothing can tell you how graceful you do the things you do

Nothing can tell you How much I think of you.

Nothing-
Nothing at all.
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There are parts of writing this one I really loved… and others that I feel need to be re-done. But I wanted to share what I have so far. If anyone feels that they’ve read something like this before– It’s because I took parts of older stuff I wrote to create this one.

Enjoy.

Fly Away Chorus

So just fly away
and leave me behind
Saying Im okay with letting you go
is the hardest thing I’ll ever have to lie
I wont be where you left me
when you realize you were wrong
I’ll be waiting for you
right where I belong.

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Out Of Place

Yesterday’s events really opened my eyes, as to where “my place” is now. That, and a talk I had with my father a long time ago (about a girl I couldn’t get over) were my inspiration for this song. You wanted me there, and if you still do in general we can try to work something out, but otherwise- this song pretty much says it all.