Το μίσος είναι πραγματικά μια ισχυρή λέξη

Έριξα μια ματιά πίσω στις ενέργειές μου τα τελευταία χρόνια, ειδικά αυτές που σας περιέλαβαν και κάθε φορά – τα πράγματα τελείωσαν τον ίδιο τρόπο. Με χρησιμοποιήσατε και μου κάνατε κακή χρήση και με αφήσατε – μόνο για να επιστρέψετε επανειλημμένως και πάλι. Και οι δύο ξέρουμε ότι εάν καθένας έχει το δικαίωμα να είναι τρελλός σε σας – αυτό είμαστε εγώ. Όλος έκανα ήμουν προσοχή για σας και θέλω το καλύτερο, και δεν ξέρω εάν μπορώ να πω το ίδιο πράγμα για σας. Η πυρκαγιά που καίει μέσα σε με σας παρουσιάζει τώρα σε ένα νέο φως. Ονειρευτήκατε ότι θελήσατε να καταστήσετε τα πράγματα σωστά – καλά τα όνειρα δεν είναι πραγματικότητα – εσείς θα πρέπει πραγματικά να κάνετε κάτι εάν φροντίσετε πραγματικά.

I gotta say- IF anyone has actually decoded this and translated it- you’re not going to get the right message. Its all pretty screwed up when re-translated, but have fun with it anyway.

Plead:Please_Teach_Me//3.1.14

How you do it.
How you can be so calm and heartless.
How you can say no, and not care about what that means.
How you do it…

I need to know.

Time Flies…

Seconds turn into Minutes, Minutes turn into Hours, Hours turn into Days, Days into Weeks, Weeks into Months, Months into Years…

Cut down to size

I hate double standards… especially when it comes at forgiveness.

People wrong me all the time, and I forgive them, and in the majority of the cases I end up standing by them after they make their mistakes and we put it behind us and often times become pretty good/close/best friends.. and we keep going.

I just wish that for all the patience and goodwill I normally show, I wish people would give me a chance to atone for my screw ups when I make them.

My head hurts, my chest hurts, and its getting harder to breath.. I thought all this would end when I got out of high school. It sucks that we cant be adults about this.

This isnt what I wanted at all… Everyone else seems to benefit while I pay the price. Such is my luck.

Ouch

Ouch, Forgotten is yesterday, Omitted from the memory. Time, Money, Love, Patience, and a soul all thrown out the window. The saving grace that caught the fallen, but never good enough to be remembered. Who's love was so great but yet never mattered and is again forgotten. Thats me

And to think, it all began a year ago today, For a few the road ended and for some the road had just began. June 25th, 2005- A day that will live in emphamy when eight lives changed forever. "The Quad-Date"… And to think how everyone has gone their seperate ways. One man is in tulsa. One girl is in Arkansas. One man is living in sun valley. One girl on her way to moscow. One mans a stoner, Two girls are happily in the arms of new boy-toys and One man- remembers.

And it will be hard to forget.

*Its sad to think that some people have to measure who you are by who you're with. They say they want to be their own person and yet they always have to have that squeeze. Jump from one relationship to the next and then they get tired of the great ones and throw them away and move on to the next un-suspecting/trusting peron and start again. Its happened before, and it will happen again. Its sad*

Chas, Im sorry that our time together didnt mean that much to you (as apparent by your blog). You sure fooled me.

*end transmission*

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